Starchaser just kept screaming

Knights Of Rounds

2008-12-19T21:27:00.001+08:00

Breathe
Just breathe
What are you waiting for?

Incisions forced; blood runs
We're forced to believe it
Don't you see it?
You're being overthrown by ...

We are the knights
Your nightmare arrives
I don't think you know I don't think you know
What has come for you
Follow the lights
They're burning so bright
I don't think you know I don't think you know
What has come for you

Breathe
Just breathe
Won't you walk through the door

Focus on all your instincts
It brings you deeper to the meaning of what we've become
Show your heart of stone

We are the knights
Your nightmare arrives
I don't think you know I don't think you know
What has come for you
Follow the lights
They're burning so bright
I don't think you know I don't think you know
What has come for you

We subside
Lost in your eyes
You burn so bright

All It Takes For Your Dreams To Come True

2008-12-19T21:19:00.001+08:00

The fire rages in me
Never want to see the roses on your door
The glass that separates our touch
Soaring into the unknown skies fearing what we're fighting for

This is a war we cannot win!

Our last time to make stars collide right before our eyes
Believe in everything .. everything you've ever known
Reciting words we lost .. these years will never be untold
I won't be alone

The fire rages in me
Daylight fights through the night with the cries of redemption
The sun ignites the light in our eyes

...And is this possible

Our last time to make stars collide right before our eyes
Believe in everything .. everything you've ever known
Reciting words we lost .. these years will never be untold
I won't be alone

This time we fight ... side by side ... you and I

The bringers of light ... the teeth in the night
I won't be alone

The Vicegrip Of Yesterday

2008-12-17T02:20:00.003+08:00

Dear Ms Ana,
I'm not angry or vent any anger on you
I'm just disappointed in you
I know you meant good and well
But lying isn't good for anybody
The Truth is I was waiting for you
I still do.
But when i got to know the truth
i was disheartened
i was really scared
Scared to be left again

I thought this wasn't going to happen
But it did
An apology would be nice
Only god knows how i feel now
So alone
So tired of everything
Pulling me down
No matter how hard i tried
it still didn't work out
I've always thought that you'll be coming back
But it seems that
You'll not be coming back to me

Now that I've lost my way
It's better for me to sit still
And just sit there all alone
This coming 25 Dec will be my 7 years of curse
This curse will never wash
But will soaked in blood
Blood filled with agony and pain
That I've suffered
This is just a resignation of my life

I know you've heard my stories a million times
But if you ever wanna come back(i wish)
Please tell me so
If you really dont want me then
i guess its fate that we cant be together

Maybe i shouldnt be saying anything
could be,should be,would be...haiz...
I hope you're doing fine on the other side
I pray for your safety, your health
Remember the Nasi Ayam?
Hehehe

Thank you for the venom

2008-12-08T04:23:00.003+08:00

I didnt regret that i waited for you...
thick and thin i went through...
I went head over heels for you...
It didnt turn out for me and you...

you didnt realise how much i cared
you didnt realise how much i bled deep inside
i know the truth, you dont need to know
the day you disappear is like im nothing

you did wrote down it didnt work out for us
you needed space, you needed time
i gave you that but i've lost in trust
Its all about you, not about us

what the fuck did you lie then?
what the hell did you bring me down?
far away, you can can just keep on lying
that im forever your rawkstar..

Im getting better
better to agree with the reality
the reality of waiting and suffering
you dont wanna know how i felt

it wont save you..
just by lying to save yourself
just by lying everything would just stop
everything will end

i thought you were different
but it seems that you are just the same
all these while i have been decieved
decieved by the very ones that i worship

thank you for the lies you wrote down
thank you for the fantasy
thank you for the Venom
that you gave me to drink...

Denied

2008-11-29T16:39:00.002+08:00

There is nothing left for me
There is nothing left for you
There is nothing left at all
A wasteland of my mind
Don't think you ever will see
Don't think you ever will know
How much I actually cared
About everything we shared
Why the fuck did you lie then?
Why in hell did you bring me down?
Don't you realize?
No one gets out of this place alive
Hasn't been screaming all these years
Just to see the world crashing around me
Maybe this life is overrated
But I won't let the world burn around me

A SITUATION LIKE THIS SHOULD NEVER EXIST
THEN WHY ARE WE OUT OF CONTROL
I SEE SMOKE FROM THE EDEN FIRE
WATCH IT GOING HIGHER AND HIGHER

You pulled me up from the dream
Let's compare scars you and I
You are always on my mind
I will never leave you behind
You broke my engagement to
Solitude, and made me threw away
The ring of retaliation

The Past Should Stay Dead

2008-11-29T16:26:00.002+08:00

Tailored sheets, to fit this dirty bed,
for once the dirt won't come all off
I can’t be pushed aside.

Wind is blowing through closed doors
With shadows dancing in the hall
Now hit the floor, crawl to the side,
We've all made better moves despite our slowing feet

For Once, lets leave the dreaming to someone else,
Our time has slipped away,
We’re sinking faster, faster no more play,
Set aside for the catch,
I'm at the next step, waiting for our year

And all at once it leaves you breathless,
With next to nothing, but open hands.

Reach out, hold on tight,
I know it hurts but keep trying,
And with your luck,
This won't be over quick
Out of the blue it strikes you
What’s left to catch but the fear of letting go?

And bite down,
The stress get harder now,
The mood is let down,
Let it play for the last time,
take this last second to know who's walking out.

For once don’t be so weak,
Back up the feelings that you claim now,
Fall deeper into a world, that you can’t explain.
For once don’t be so weak,
I see the mistake that is you,
don't try another line, I know the truth

Let hate save you, when, nothing else will,
Oh, let it save you, when, nothing else will.
Let it save you.

The mood is let down,
Let it play for the last time,
take this last second to know who's walking out

We know who does it best,
Wind is blowing through closed doors
With shadows dancing in the hall
Now hit the floor, crawl to the side,
We've all made better moves despite our slowing feet

Let hate save you when nothing else will.

I know the truth, it won’t save you

Wanted You More Than You Do.

2008-11-14T03:12:00.000+08:00

As days come waltzing by
The Night slowly fades away
The Anguish cries of sorrow
Disappears through the melody of Autumn

The tower stands before my eyes
As i watch it crumble to dust
i'll let the past go from my life
To a place thats everlast

I need someone to hold me tight
Hold me forever through the night
Because i wanted you more,wanted you more
Than you do
Baby Girl,I Love You

That Capricorn was a Silent Killer

2008-11-08T11:02:00.004+08:00

Im Overrated.
I need to find inner peace for myself.
i never needed oxygen,i need carbon dioxide.
The fumes is turning me against myself.
Life is hard.
Life is never easy for me.
It always turns back on me.
Seven was the number.
Years is what i've counted.
I'll be gone in a day.
Don't bother when i'm GONE...
Let everything and misery.
take control...
Of me...
Sometimes i wish i could be someone..
Sometimes i wish to be look upon..
Everything i took was for granted..
Everything i took was...
I'm gonna find my inner peace...
My Flaws,Where i've gone wrong.
Alone in December,To find my strength...
To Live on...
For this life to be worthwhile for me...
Darkness is all i see...

Self-Doubt

2008-11-07T04:48:00.003+08:00

Why do things got harder as i grow up?

An upstart of a filth,to a cradle of mishaps

I am no prince charming,its quite alarming

Im no hero,it always ended as a zero

Should i be concern of myself?
Or just let self doubt takes its place?
How could i so happen to make everything as it seems?
Or am i just waiting for miracles to happen?
Seems like there's no miracles to it.
Everything happens for a reason
In their eyes im always the treason
Sun always sets when im out for the season

What should i do to make all this filth go away?
What should i do to make miracles?
Maybe its just my luck..
My life sucks..
It sucks to be me..
It really is..

Under this thin layer of skin,
Some judge the different things about me
It was never the thought of being different
It was never the life i conquered
Im never going to finish the race in life
Why do people always step my head?
Maybe im just stupid..
Plain stupid...

Why am i the implosive type of person?
who keeps his feelings to himself?
Then one day explodes like the atomic bomb
It isnt a hell of fun
I never wanted to hurt people
Never wanted...
Ive got so many questions
But the answer was never found
Its the most profound quiet
In the heart of raging riot
Who is a rotten idiot..

Why do i keep complaining to myself?
I dont know why..
I dont really know...
An utterly a disregard to myself...
Or am i just feel so insecure about everything
I wrote songs...
Its just a once upon a time fairytale
Stuck in this labyrinth of chaos

Its a 10 BOO-HOOs for me
Zero for miracles to happen
Zero for being a hero
10 For being nothing
10 for me because i suck in life

Lexington

2008-11-06T21:15:00.000+08:00

The fields are near and I won't trust the air with secrets.I can't stop holding this treasure in my arms.For all the water in the oceancould never turn this swan's legs from black to white.Let them say, let them say, let them say what they please.You won't be leaving my arms...ever, I promise you that.Even if you want me to let go, honey. Even if you want me to let go.You won't be leaving my arms...ever, I promise you that.Even if you want me to let go, honey.Even if you say the things that make me want to lose you.We went on drinking, celebrating somethingI looked at you and said that I'm forever yoursYou looked at me and said oh the idea of being in loveThe idea. The idea of being forever yours.You won't be leaving my arms...ever, I promise you that.Even if you want me to let go, honey. Even if you want me to let go.You won't be leaving my arms...ever, I promise you that.Even if you want me to let go, honey.Even if you say the things that make me want to lose you.Screaming from the inside of me.A lonely and pleading phantasm.We only get what we seeGazing so desperatelyBetween the things that we fearGazing so desperatelyElaborate delusions.We're watching segregating illusions.Between the things that we see, and the things that we fear.No, no it won't make them disappear.You won't be leaving my arms...ever, I promise you that.Even if you want me to let go, honey. Even if you want me to let go.You won't be leaving my arms...ever, I promise you that.Even if you want me to let go, honey.Even if you say the things that make me want to lose you.Even if you want me to let go, honey...

For All these Time

2008-10-31T02:25:00.001+08:00

Would time Turns its back on me?
Or would it tilts its hourglass for me to see?
Could i turn back time and change my past?
Or would i have to face the test?

Let the fire in me burn
to cold ashes in its turn
Help me to understand
from where i used to stand

I have to escape tis war
flesh and blood,my heart is tore
Thought i was really dead
to roll the dice,my debt is paid

To the ferryman who lost his way
i came alive when i met you the very 1st day
Ares shudder and shook
He gave back what he already took

Icarus could sail the skies
But i took his wings and fly
I flew as high as i can
Eventually i fell,it was the ground that i land

Everything seems so dark
but it was the light that brought me to life
The light that embraced me with warmness
With courage and might,im able to break free from this darkness

My love for you has never changed
Through the years,it never changed
My heart is only for you
With this I end it with

I LOVE YOU..

Something

2008-10-31T02:17:00.002+08:00

So now you're running
It's hard to see clearly
When I make you angry
You're stuck in the past

And now you're screaming
So can you forgive me?
I've treated you badly
But I am still here

Sometimes I wonder
Why I'm still waiting
Sometimes I'm shaking
That's how you make me
Sometimes I question
Why I am still here
Sometimes I think I am going crazy

Can you help me understand?
And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
(Someone) (something to somebody else)

You look at me through clouded eyes
I know you see through my lies
See the sky, see the stars
All of this could be ours
Out of sight, out of mind
We've been through this a thousand times
Turn your back and then you make me feel so crazy

Can you help me understand?
And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else

You know I would wait forever
Yes, I would wait (I would wait)

You know I would wait forever
Yes, I would wait

And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else

And I'm the one that should mean something
But still you wish that you meant something to somebody else
Something to somebody else, something to somebody else

A simple square root love poem

2008-10-29T05:46:00.002+08:00

I fear that i will always be lonely
Like square root three
A three is all thats good and right
Why must three keep out of sight

Beneath the vicious square root sign
I wished instead i was a nine
For nine could kill this evil trick
With just some quick Arethmatic

I know I'll never see the sun as 1.7321
Such as my reality,A sad Rationality
When heart was this i see
another square root of a three

As quietly waltzing by
Together they multiply
To form a number we prefer
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
And with the wave of our wands
The root signs become unglued
Love for me has been renewed

Taken from
Harold And Kumar:Escape from Guantanamo Bay

The Battle Of Ares

2008-10-29T01:16:00.002+08:00

I've been alone
Through the nights,
Through the cold winter,
Forsaken for what is told.

I've been alone,
through the lonely nights,
the depression of time,
and the fallen empire.

Icarus spreads its wings of vanity and wax,
when i found a plague im holding,
Holding on to what was Then,
The present is what Ares took from me.

My Confidence,
My Smiles,
My Soul,
And all i have left is Self Doubt.

I don't want to fight in a losing battle,
I'm insecure,
I'm alone for 7 years,
This is what Ares took from me...

Now I've found what i've lost for the past 2 years,
Im determined to fight in this battle,
I'm determined to win it,
Regain myself,my soul,my heart.

She's an inspiration,
The Music,
The Air i breathe,
Im determine to really fight.

I have to lose all my insecurities,
My Self Doubt,
My Small Heart,
For The Maiden I Long For...Ana...

To Embrace her Beauty From Within

2008-10-27T12:40:00.000+08:00

Lead Me Here
Lead Me Here

Now The Sound of Alchemy Sounded So Good.
Now Scream Your Hearts Out
To This Contour Blazing Road
For Neverending Lust!!!

Im Seeking the Savoury
The Saviour Of Lights
That Blazed Through The Night
With Wolves Ugly Bite

Ooooo
Take My Hand
Into Your Life
Into This Neverending Dreamland
This papercuts Just Sees Me Through
This Love Will Never End